I was hoping that this was a section that I could get some fun insights, stories or thoughts out on a regular basis, but this month has been crazy and I just wasn't able to get to it. I sat down to write something and my brain just wouldn't engage. I would get a couple of sentences in and then it would just freeze. I wanted to write about the 'creative scaries', my spin derived from 'Sunday scaries' and I'll get to it eventally because it's something that most creatives deal with and think it's important to put it out there.
My issue this month is somewhat loosely aligned with the creative scaries. There are times where you just freeze; there is an idea in your head and no matter what you do it just stays there. You cannot form the thoughts to convey what is swimming around in your brain, or what you do finally put down is just trash so you don't move forward. You sit there frozen in indecision. So that has been what I have been dealing with. Minimal creative vibes flowing with very little mental capacity to be creative even.
I think many of us get so caught up in perfection that it makes it hard to move forward when you know things aren't at your best. I think it would be amazing to normalize just moving forward. Perfection is a myth and to continuously strive for something like that everytime is setting yourself up for failure. Moving forward inspite of the mental blocks and challenges should be celebrated and encouraged instead of looked down upon. Not the two faced shit either where people gaslight you into thinking it's good when we all know that it's not. Normalize the effort of the thing maybe and not the thing itself.
I think that moving forward even when things aren't at their best can jump start whatever the thing is and shift the block or unfreeze things. This post is a perfect example of this. I wasn't planning on writing very much at all just something as an apology for not getting a post done for the month of March. Once I started writing though not expecting anything grand or thought provoking, the words just keep coming. So maybe this post doesn't have clear concise thoughts, maybe it isn't composed well, maybe it's a bit squirrely, but it is good for what it is, the attempt and the effort.
There will always be something that is in your way. Something that is holding you back, something that is scary or seems like an unsurmountable odd, so instead of giving in to the stagnation of indecision do it anyway. It's okay if it takes you a little bit to make the move but do it anyway. It took me most of the month to get this far in this piece of writing, so it's okay if it takes you a bit and you don't do it right away. Just don't let it stop you for good. Do it scared, do it unprepared, do it blind, do it for you and fuck everyone else who could possible judge you cirtique you or antyhing like that. Remember that comparison is the thief of joy.
There is only one you on this Earth and it needs whatever unique piece of amazing you bring to the table. Always. It doesn't have to be perfect, it doesn't even have to be good, it just has to be from you.
xoxoxo Arden 💋
